I spend a lot of time trying to get everything as it should be. Just once I want to wake up, plod downstairs in my bathrobe and socks, and find everything in my house where it should be. I look out my windows every day and long to have my flower beds and landscaping up to par with what I envision it should be. And the list could go on — the pile of mail, bills, laundry, my writing…there seems no end to the list of what is “not right.”
And then there is the more serious list to consider. How I long to have everything as it should be in all my family relationships, my friendships, my responsibilities, my goals and aspirations. And how I long even more to have everything be as it should be inside of me – in my heart, in the very depths of my soul. At times, this perpetual sense of dissatisfaction with “me” becomes a heavy weight.
I am reminded, however, that it is not entirely my job to get everything as it should be – not in life’s chores or responsibilities, not in relationships, not even in myself. As the Apostle Paul says, “We are waiting the arrival of the Savior…Jesus Christ…He will make us beautiful and whole, with the same powerful skill by which he is putting everything as it should be, under and around Him” (Phil. 3:21). I do not have the ability to make all things right, to arrange my life in perfect order and harmony. Only Jesus can-and someday He will arrange all things in perfect order around Himself. So for now, I am learning to live with an appropriate discontent, faithfully following and willingly waiting for the day when everything will be as it should, because of Jesus.